Well after all the build up the stress the panicking and the “I am never going to get anything finished in time” Scale model world is over for another year and here I am a week on wondering where the weekend and the week after has gone. For reasons only known to me I sit procrastinating and cleaning and tidying my workroom for most of the year and then go in to blind panic 6 weeks before we leave for Telford stressing that I am never going to get anything finished and get the feeling that the clock is ticking and running down against me which in turn makes me stressed and I get the feeling that I am letting my fellow club members down, which also in turn makes me short tempered in my panic to get my projects finished and it is not helped by my partner in crime and better half Kerry bragging that she has had hers finished for weeks and is sitting back relaxing. Maybe I enjoy the adrenaline pumping through my body as I panic and panic some more spending hour upon hour glued to the workbench struggling to finish off my little projects which usually change from the planned models I wanted to get finished to ones that I am more likely to get finished simply because they are built and ready to be painted.
When I started the mad rush to get ready this year there was a choice of models for me to finish most of which were in the smallish scale of 1/48 which I kind of enjoy, the Tamiya kits are a joy to put together do not take long to paint, just what you need to get finished for a self imposed deadline. My original plan was to finish one 1/35 tank and 3 1/48 however as time started to run down that soon became 5 48’s then 4, which in the end were the 4 that I completed and took with me. To be honest having quite a lot of built and half built kits does have its advantages from time to time, they might take up far too much room in a workroom that is short on available space yet having them sitting there waiting for the moment that I reach for the box and rescue them from a life of incompletion and finish them off. There is this tendency for me to make a start on a kit, and I am sure I am not alone in this where I start a kit because one catches my eye on Facebook in a book or in a magazine and over time for whatever reason it gets put onto the back burner and slowly but surely finds its way back into the box and gets popped onto the stash of shame. These are the kits that came to my rescue this year and enabled me to complete 4 kits for our annual trip up to the Midlands for scale model world, in all fairness for someone that has been modelling for more years than he cares to remember I should not be relying on kits I built 5/10 years ago to make my 12 months worth of work look like I have actually achieved something.
On my return this week once the assembled weekend purchases have had the obligatory photograph taken, the purchases then put away, the models we took with us put back on the shelf I felt ready for a strange and unlikely return to the workbench however work had a different plan for me and after a very tiring yet wonderful weekend in Telford it was work work work with 2 late nights at work thrown in plus housework and shopping the workbench opportunities where at a zero. Normally the build up to Telford is set at a frantic pace and by the time we return home I am happy to put everything into the workroom and close the door not wanting to look at anything model related for at least a month as I get over the burn out that usually follows the return from the Midlands yet this year feels a bit different, maybe it is because after the mad rush and stress of the last 5/6 weeks I have come to realise that it is not really sustainable to do it year on year out and if I set myself a good pace throughout the year come November next year I should have enough finished that I can enjoy the build up and not stress about getting things finished with the help of a late night and the trusty hairdryer.
So here I am a week after our return from Telford and it was yet another great weekend for me and Kerry my ever smiling partner in crime, we spent the weekend with an ever expanding group of amazing people laughing eating drinking talking and spending the hard earned whiling the time away at what I think is a really great model show full of really great models in a really great atmosphere. From the moment you walk through the doors of the International centre and hear the low rumble of conversation to the moment you find yourself breaking down the club stand putting your models away and the realisation hits that you may have spent next weeks shopping money on models you may not build for a year or two. With the show being over it kind of leaves a small void in your life until life gets a grip then you start to think about next year and all those models you would love to build and get finished when in reality the chances of all these planned projects actually coming to fruition is very low. As you try to meticulously pack the car with more haste than you packed it with and with a lot more stuff than you bought with you or had planned on buying, with fond memories and a reluctance you pull out of the car park and start that very long journey home. So with it all over and with just one model show left to go for us this year I am looking forward to getting back to the workbench and hopefully get one or 2 things finished before the year ends when I will start thinking and planning about next years model shows which for us kicks off in Banstead in very early February, getting all my Telford builds well on the way (I hope) before the spring and summer arrive and it gets too warm to model.
The Average Modeller